homesick

long time did not call mum and chat with her.
i know i am gonna cry if talk to her.
already 3 weeks in kampar.
i try to adapt to kampar life.
but get sick since yesterday.
feeling headache the whole day
wtf
i used to be as tough as i can.
but somehow i feel like there will be better if someone can listen to me.
i keep everything inside my deep heart
hoping that there will be someone can understand me
and say 'tell me ur problem, i am here with u.'
no matter boy or girl.
at least there is someone care for me.
staying outside alone hard to avoid be emotional.
i know i am emotional
small thingy oso can cry.
i dun wnt my tears drop, but i cant keep it anymore
stress and pressure around me
i know there is someone who always pamper me a lot.
but we are so far from each other.
and a big change happened between us.
i dun know what will happen the next.
but thank you.
i try to be humour again.
i miss myself!
the one who used to be laughed a lot!
i hate myself！
the one who always put others first rather than herself!
i dun knw what happened to me.
i miss my family! i dun knw why i miss my dad the most!
is it because he had changed a lot becoz of us? i am so love him!
maybe for some ppl i quite $$ faces
but u knw what?!
dun tell me u dun love money ok!
ppl, u are so suck!
please get out, dun ruin my life!